Monday, August 25, 2014

Still Enjoying Summer!

What is with all the back to school pictures already!?  My kids don't start school until the fourth of September! (Hence the lack of regular posts - we are outside!!!)  See you in a few days!

Sunday, August 17, 2014

A(nother) June Birthday

Feeling a little stressed this morning.  Not really stressed, maybe a little bummed out is a better way to put it.  IF (Note, I did say "IF") this transfer works, then it will be a June baby.  There is already SO MUCH going on in June!  I feel like not only will this baby's birthday be less special, it will make the other ones more stressful and a matter of "just making it through to the next one."

Here is the June rundown in my house:
June 4th - Fifeaversary
June 13 - Nephew
June 15- Good friend's birthday
June 14 or -17 sometime - Father's Day
June 17- Husband's Birthday
June 17 - Bestie's Birthday
June 19 - Grandma Birthday
June 24 - Sister's birthday
June 30th - Inlaws Anniversary

Anyway, I know it sounds selfish but as I was laying in bed this morning daydreaming about what it would be like to cram another sweet baby into our king sized bed, these kinds of thoughts occur to me.  I am so grateful for the opportunity to even attempt to have another baby - I really am!  I hope and pray EACH MINUTE that this transfer works!  I would be happy with any birthday, but in a perfect - fertile- world, I would plan the birthday's just a little bit differently......

PS - comment if you are reading this please!  Anything you would like to know or think I should address on here?

Monday, August 11, 2014

Ugg... Road Block

I had an appointment last Friday with my RE to make a plan and get things started with my FET.  I was really excited and he had already had me on Lupron shots for the five days before my appointment so things were already moving along.  I got a babysitter and drove the two hours to my dr, and sang my little heart out to the music I liked on the way - remember, I had no kids with me!  You guys, I was so excited to be moving along with this!

But.  See, in infertility land, there always seems to be a "but."  My "but" was this:  I don't have any FDA testing done on the donors of my embryos.  I don't need it!  I know them and know what their personal standards WERE and ARE at the time of creation, before that and even now!  So last time I used them, I signed a paper that said I was willing to "risk it" and all was great.  Last year, a lady from the FDA came in to audit files and mine got flagged BUT I DID'T know that so when I got there on Friday my dr said he still hadn't heard from her to see if I had to do the tests this time or not.  So he took me off the medicine and now we are waiting until the end of this month..... Deflated does not describe it!  I am so antsy and you may come to realize if you stick with me that I am the worlds most impatient person ever.  Seriously, EVER.

My donors are looking into getting some speedy tests done, and my Dr is working on getting permission to move forward without the tests so whatever happens first I guess.  My next appointment is Sep 5, and that seems like so far away!  I know, it sounds spoiled of me but I was already a week into the medicine.

So not how to give yourself a shot tutorials this week, as I am not on any shots, but they will come.  In the meantime, I have two girls pregnant from matches they made on my website,, and another girl going in for a transfer in two weeks!  So many things to be grateful for today!


Thursday, August 7, 2014

Here we go again!!!

Welcome!!  I have done so many matches in the last year and seeing these sweet families grown and the babies born has been simply amazing!  I am so, so grateful to have been a part of this incredible part of so many families lives.  Because of this, and because I already have on complete, successful embryo transfer under my belt AND THREE KIDS, why do I feel so nervous??

Because I am going to try again.  Am I crazy?  A little.  How many times can one girl be blessedwithinfertility?   I feel like I am tempting fate here or something.  Things are going so well, and my two year old "baby" is just now moving out of the baby phase, I mean, she JUST stopped nursing!  Like, last week!  She is still waking up at least once a night, I may never sleep again if I get pregnant this time!  

Husband isn't too sure our family needs to grow, but feels the same as I do:  It's time to attempt to give life to these remaining embryos.  No matter the outcome, we love our family, and our life and we both agree that we are already so blessed in the world of adoption and infertility!

Do you think it would be helpful to include a few "how to" videos on here?  For example, how to give your self a shot of Lupron or even a few different methods of giving yourself a shot in the bum?  I am going to try a video diary this time - ask some questions and I will try to answer them!!

Thanks for going on this journey with me!